unabashedly uncorked: your daily dose of EPH!

The past 7 weeks have seemingly been setback after setback. If it wasn’t one thing [finding out we had a Superman Baby on our hands] it’s been another [health issues AGAIN with me last week; give me a break already, body!]. Coming to grips with all of it- while at the same time juggling all of the emotional and physical ramifications of our loss- has been beyond challenging.  

While I was pregnant, I was starving and nauseous and exhausted all the time. I’m talking seriously nauseous. Like, one Monday while en route to work, I got sick out of my window while driving. Apparently I had left my common sense at home that morning (why the hell did I not just PULL OVER?!) along with my strong stomach. So when I say that I virtually gave up my workouts for a solid 11 weeks, I wasn’t kidding. At the end of the day when given the choice between a walk in the 99 degree heat or a nap in my cozy bed- baby I chose the nap. 

[fast forward to mid-August; sans baby and with jeans that no longer fit. damn.] 

Getting these squishy bits to not be squishy anymore has been a personal motivation of mine since my (our) miscarriage. I’ve had to take it relatively slow- conquering a new task each week. First it was my running. Then Pure Barre. And yesterday evening, I took my first spin class since April. Shockingly I’m actually able to walk today. 

Y’all, it feels great to be back. That I’ve finally regained my stance with my healthy and, subsequently, my happiness.

[those of you that underestimate the value of endorphins- I couldn’t be more convinced that you are 100% incorrect!] 

My end of the line goal here isn’t to be back where I was in April. I can’t run my body into the ground again like I was. This time, I just want to be active and healthy. If I manage to lose a couple of l.b.’s along the way- great. I’m just fine with the way my new jeans fit me- it’s the little, tiny things that I’m hoping to tone and burn.

I’ve come to grips with the cliche term that everything happens for a reason. With all of the uncertainties in life, the one constant I can provide- the only one that is really in my control- is my physical health. 

It really feels good to be back - to have my footing and to be standing right where I want to be. For now. For the present. And helping shape and mold my (our) future. 

one step at a time,

EWPH